Oh, there I am.

Yes yes, it has been quite some time. I sit here, writing this to you, from my desk in my current room. I say current because I have no idea when I'll be moving again, so I don't want to put the label "permanent" on anything. What has been going on? Well it has been six days since my last post, and while I can't recall every event accurately, I can just give you some summaries.

Work: Well work is what it is and nothing more. Wal Mart treats me with the same dignity as it does it's clientele (I'll let you figure that one out), but it does pay for all my bills so I can't argue the fact that it serves a purpose. I have no intentions of letting this become a career. To be honest, I have no realization of what my career shall wind up being. Oh well, I suppose I need to get somewhat of a higher education for that. And speaking of education...

Education: Last week while on a lunch break, I ran into my old college Jazz Band instructor. He is a really down-to-earth kind of guy, while having strong foundations in his beliefs and opinions. Good guy overall; we get along well. He knew I had yet to finish my degree, and asked me why don't I come back and play some bass for the jazz band. I told him I'd like to, but due to my mistakes (and that's putting it mildly) in my past, the college refuses to let me in, even though I will of course be paying out of my pocket for my classes and supplies. He then thought on this and proceeded to tell me to come by his office sometime this week so we can look over my transcripts and "see how bad the damage is". Well I know it's not pretty by any standards, but hopefully he can talk to the right people and at least get me another chance (yes undeservedly so) to prove that I have gained some maturity. I have been out of college for two years, and through all I've experienced in that short time frame, I'm ready for a serious run at a degree.

Well those are the major events taking place; I told you it was nothing grand or specific. Life has been very relaxed lately, to the point where I'm slipping into a comfortable state of acceptance, and that scares me. I play my games, run my fantasy football teams, watch sports religiously, listen and play music frequently, and watch films like mad crazy. It's calming, but yet it's stationary. Hopefully some new developments will happen this week, and my spark will once again be lit. Hopefully...

1:05am, but this goes out to yesterday I say.

Oh life, and how your wheel spins in a constant state of crazed emotions, blended finely with dashes of reason and common sense. Truly a remarkable few days, yet littered with common events.

Not quite sure where to begin here. Work is as it is; nothing new or romantic about it. No new adventures, no new ideas coming to mind on it. It simply is a means to whatever the ends are I'm pursuing. And those ends are quite befuddled in my mind currently. Sure, dreams of being a successful writer still trample my everyday thought process, but dreams of being a valid musician (interesting way to put it) also surface from time to time. I suppose I just want to feel very complete about what I do, and I want it to come from me. Not my hands or mind, but from the essence of myself. My spirit, if you will. This sounds like a repeat from my last post, so I'll cut the "future dreams" session off here.

Aside from work, what has occupied my time over the past few days would be writing, baseball games, fantasy football, music and gaming. Typical sounding items from a 23 year old male's life. The writing has been productive (I'll post some work soon), the Yankees are winning as usual, my fantasy football teams seem solid, the music is flowing quite well and the gaming is...well in perfect honesty, a waste of time seeing how it contributes nothing to where I'm trying to be. But I suppose that isn't fair; it does provide a certain amount of leisure so I may relax after work and the like. Either way, it's been overall very calm in life. Now that brings up the question as to why did I write such an introduction? Well it's that calmness that has me feeling so enamored with life at the moment. I don't usually find such tranquility, so when I do I tend to hold on tight and make a big fuss of the matter.

Well it's sleep time. Sorry for the delay in posts and sorry for the short length of this one. Tomorrow will bring new updates and new life changes, or so I hope! Stick with me, I promise my story will get better. Goodnight, dream well.